Friday, May 22, 2009

It's such a pain, whenever i rethink about the past again, and im not gonna lie about it here.. In the other blog, i might be pretending to be alright and all, but the fact is, that's not totally true.. I mean, lets face it, it really is not easy to just let go everything at all, that is IF it is possible to forget everything.

At times, i thought of wanting to talk to you.. Just saying hi or something, but something within me decided against it. Everything you used to tell me now seems like it's just a lie..

You told me you're nt gonna be like Sue, disappear without any trace at all, so what are you exactly doing to me now then? Maybe i said this hundreth times alrd, but im still gonna say it, I'm disappointed on myself that I still cant forget you completely and i'm also disappointed at what you do to me.. I thought you're gonna be diff, you certainly proved me wrong..

Do you remember the Indonesian song i sent you? "Permintaan hati" Whenever i heard that song now, it really pain me a lot.. It really draw out our condition perfectly well now.. What seems to be so far back then, feels just so real now that i cant believe it's happening.. Sigh, when will this torment end?