Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Been an awfully long and tiring, yet fun day today.. I mean, it's tue class!! Told u im looking forward for it alrd :D

Meet up with sinting and the rest 1st before we went to school together.. As usual, sinting is the latest to arrive, i mean, what's new? :P Today, i'm in the same class as sinting, so we head down to our beloved class together.. When i enter the class, all i saw in my team is only Kai En.. I thought the rest will show up in no time, but until the class started alrd, there's not even a sign of them yet.. Our faci asked us whether we want to join up with other teams or not, but we are resilent and said "we have faith in our teammates!" Haha!! The only good news is after a guy came in the class (dont know what's his name yet =x) and said "dont worry, jo will come" then, me and kai en exchange glance, and we understood each other that it's fine alrd, and we wont need to join other teams.. Ivan and Han Yang came much later, and that's when our crap journey begin! :D

Didnt focus much on today's work.. It's only 2nd week, and i've been crapping with the class like as if i knew them for long long time.. But then again, this is how i like my class to be, cheerful bunch of lame asses who jokes back and mock back when i joke and mock them jokingly :D Rock on guys! Me and my team joke so much till we didnt even manage to complete our presentation.. Luckily, Raymon sent me a ppt of his friend and we are so freaking tempted to juz edit the background and present it as what it is.. Lucky Ivan bring us to conscience and change the words and all.. Ah well, the format and all is still the same, but at least, the faci let us off juz like that! Haha!! THX FACI!! :D

Crap around with classmates as i wait for young to come over to my class.. And i talked to alicia (i think this is her name, since i made her add me in facebook and that's wad she write her name as in facebook), and found out that she play dota too! And we agree to have a friendly match next week after class alrd.. Awesome, or what?! Haha!! Walked over to causeway with young after that, and cant resist the temptation to play rising zone again.. So, each of us pump in 6 bucks, which is ard 3 credits.. and guess what?! WE CLEARED IT FINALLY!! Haha!! Awesome sia!

It was so tiring that when i reached home, i fall into deep slumber straight.. And when i woke up, i was greeted with nothing more than scolding from my parents.. It honestly dampen my mood whole thing.. The only thing that cheer my mood up is Cherry's msg and the thought of starting up my 1GB ram.. I done my RJ and take care of my RC and all.. I'm just so glad that Tiong called me and ask me to go and play alrd.. And thus, im going to sign off from here now and going to defend the world with my group now..

PS: Get well Cherry, and you can make it for ur phy test one! :D



Monday, April 27, 2009

Woot! Im uber high now.. Guess why? Coz my com is finally running with 1GB ram!! And the credit goes to Tiong Choovic Parichart!! Hahahaha!!

Awesome day today.. Reached school the earliest.. And starts of the discussion with teammates.. I was a bit lazy today, and i played game at the presentation time.. As in, other people's presentation, not mine, duh.. But yeah, that kinda break my record chain of paying attention, no matter how boring it is, to other ppl's presentation for 4 days alrd.. Sry guys :(

Walk back home with Young, Zakia and Sinting.. Chat and crap alot with them.. Haha! They are still the most awesome friends i have, i swear!! Thx a lot guys, to be there when i need you guys!! Esp Zakia!! As reliable and dependable as ever!! :D:D Young said he wanna visit timezone before we head home, so, i spent yet another precious 5 bucks on arcade and clear the game till Bonus stage with only 2 credits! That's like, so amazing! And you should see the crowd that gather behind us.. Esp when some of them are whispering away, when me and Young are killing enemy with headshots during the sniper rifle round.. Thx dude!! :D

Tiong called me after the arcade session.. I thought he's going to ask me to play Dota which is totally insane, coz it's only 5-6 pm, but that's not it.. He's coming over to pass me his spare ram!!! Woot woot!!! :D:D we went to homefix to get a screwdriver, but they didnt sell single one.. Thankfully, the shop owner is awfully kind, she juz let us use the screwdriver just like that! :D After some unscrewing, we finally able to plug the RAM in, though, to our dismay, when we boot up my laptop, it still show 504MB ram.. Tiong told me to fix it once i reached home and we chat a lot as we wait for his friend after that..

Reached home,and the 1st thing i do is, call Tiong up and fixed the damn RAM of mine.. It took some time, but after a few fearless attempt (scared my delicate laptop spoil lah! Else the precious RAM snap into two!), finally the RAM is positioned correctly, and FINALLY MY LAPTOP IS RUNNING WITH 1GB RAM!!! HAHAHAHA

Russell told me about free favour he accepted this year, and i thought i havent got any yet.. But apparently, im wrong.. What is this then, if not free favour? If i didnt break up, will i spend time in dota game? If i didnt spend time in dota game, will i know Shawn? If i didnt know Shawn, will i know Tiong? If i didnt know Tiong, will he come over to woodlands to meet up after school? If he didnt come over and meet up, will i get my 512 RAM for free? It's like totally a free favour that He had planned all along..

Ytd in the sermon, the reverend actually say this "STOP worrying... Those things that you worried about, answer me honestly, do you think YOU can solve it? If no, why are you keep on trying then? Shouldnt you be sitting back and relax and let God do His job?" This might make us sounds like we are slacker or something, but think about it honestly, He is our Dad, and if you are someone's parents, and if you see your child is troubled, wont you want to help them no matter how impossible it might sounds? As i was typing this, He actually play this "tape" in my head.. Back when i was primary, i need to hand this art project the next day, and i cant finish it on time.. I got scolded, sure, but when i woke up for toilet visit at night, i walked passed their room, and when i peek inside, i saw both of them are busy gluing and doing what I'M suppose to be doing.. That's how great our mortal parents love is.. What's more our immortal Dad then??

He was awesome, and He know what i need.. So, Lord, tell you what? I'm gonna take all this worriness within me, and trust that you'll be the one that solve it.. Nope, i cant get A for every single class of mine, and nope, i cant complete my CE points by the end of year 3, and NOPE, i know nothing about coding and i think my fyp for this sem is screwed.. So, nope, i'm not even going to try to solve this up anymore, and im going to sit back, and take a nap, as You do all the wonder.. Thx a lot Dad.. :D



Sunday, April 26, 2009

Woot woot!! Guess who's back?! :D If you guess it's me, you are right!! :D:D

Day starts off pretty fast today.. Woke up ard 8am, due to stomachache....AGAIN.. Then nth much happen le, except for the fact that we are going to have buffet lunch on COCA.. It's a steamboat place in orchard.. Reason of we going there is becoz it's my grandma's bday.. Had lots of food, and it have been a while since i go for buffet.. Wew! Ate till almost explode..

Head down to City Hall after that, getting ready to attend service.. Reached there 2pm, and found the rest of the caregroup is like having meeting.. So, i sat back, had a cup of coffee (yeah, i think i start to get addicted to coffee alrd nw :[) and read the book i brought along.. Head down to killiney after they are done with the meeting, and down there, guess what i had? Yeah, some of you might've guess with the hint i left above, the rest of you who didnt get it: WOLS!!! I had iced coffee.. Haha!! Chat with caregroup about school life and FYP stuff.. Apparently, they are a fun bunch of people!! Haha!!

Service was great juz nw.. It's like, the sermon is addressing my post recovery period sia.. Lots of points that the reverend said hit the mark within me.. And that's when i know, once again, my Dad have yet plan this up properly :D After service, i went to arcade a while and played Rising Storm, the recent shooting arcade game that i played with youngly.. 10 credits still, and it bring me to further point of the story.. It's awesome! :D

Now, Restaurant city is running on background, and Choovic Parichart juz called me, asking where the hell am i, so, i think i cant talk much alrd now.. Yeah, yeah, i know my post getting shorter and shorter now...but well, im trying my best to record the whole day down as short as possible, as some of you saying that my blog is wordy.. Ah well... Cant satisfy all of you, can i? =x

Oh yeah....Cherry still sick.. :( Rest more yeah? and get well soon! Looking forward to talk to the cheery you again.. :D

I was walking down the way from Rock to Mrt station, and i saw lots of places that we have visited, it does trigger my memories, and i can almost see us standing there.. Weird things is, whenever the memories triggered, I can always hear the voice within me that say "Dude, who is this girl that you keep seeing in ur memory? Do you know her?" and on that instant, the memories are gone just like that.. I dont know shall i be sad or shall i be happy about it, but i sure do feel relieved and can find myself smiling when that voice came within me

Ah well, overplay and forgot to blog for the day again, but doesnt matter, i'll recap it now

Nothing much happen today, except fetching my mum from changi airport.. I only sleep ard 4am, and my dad woke me up to go to changi airport and fetch my mum.. A bit du lan, if i were to be honest.. Well, bla and bla happen... and we came back home..

Aiya, fuck it, honestly, i cant even concentrate to blog now, coz i'm wearing headset as i typing now, and tiong they all are talking crap over the skype.. And well, we juz done dota, so, my mind still about killing and all.. Well, what u expect? pub game is ALWAYS fun :D

Oh, and im kinda looking forward to the me who'll go to service 2mr alone.. As in, i always said that i'm lazy to travel down alone, but seems like He finally instill some "solitude" attitude within me, and i told the caregroup that i'm coming alrd 2mr.. So, it's like me going to travel down alone.. New thing is i think im going to join them for the fellowship.. Quite fucked up of me though, it's like as if, i lost her alrd, then i go find friend.. But then again, i dont care, perhaps this IS what He want me to be.. Like, fun time is over, time to serve Him now..

Actually, at times, i feel like want to blog about stuffs about life.. As in, like those arguments that brew within me, but i always cant.. So, this afternoon, as i came back from changi after fetching my mum, in the bus, i actually asked God about this.. I ask "Lord, why is it that i cant think about those stuff anymore?" He replied it short and sweet "For?" and that's enuff to actually make me think alrd.. Exactly, for wad? Dont i want to be just who i am instead of someone who people want me to be? So, why think abt their opinion and stuff?

Like what I've told Amy, im going to declare it once again: He indeed know me the best! I dont even know myself that well, and yet, he can read me like an open book.. He know what i need, He know what i dont need, He know how to teach me, He know everything about me.. He is indeed a worthy Father of mine.. Thx for being so patience.. :D



Friday, April 24, 2009

Armed with 2 cans of red bull and 2 packet of snacks that i stole from Young's club room, i determined to stay up and play overnight with my friends tonight alrd! Idc, starting 2mr, it'll be hard for me to play till late alrd, so yeah, revenge game tonight! >:D

I thought i dont want to record down today's activity, but something about life instead, but then again, fuck with that.. Im gonna do what i wanna do, not becos what someone do.. So, here goes

Woke up kinda late today, but i tried to calm myself, telling myself that my class will only start at 10am.. So, just relax loh.. I'm getting good in denying her existance, i walked pass this chair where we sat down, a night before i went back Indonesia before we broke up, and i found my inner self asking "u remember you were sitting there with her?" and my other inner self replied "her? who is her? I honestly have no gf that betray me" and to my amazement, it didnt even hurt a little bit anymore.. Ok, that means, i'm really on the right track alrd..

Reached class at 945, a bit early, but better be early than late yeah? Class today's kinda......nt enjoyable.. Too quiet IMO.. I mean, they do talk, but what they talk is like.......nothing but project work.. And this is translated into NO FUN!! Ah well, seems like i'll need to do something about this group of mine also next week.. If they not gonna crap, i'm gonna crap with them till they become as lame as me..

Nothing much happened in class that's worth recording, so, i'll juz zoomed to the end of the class, where i met up with my fyp mates and we do some UCS on login, and by the end of the session, we decided to split work and i got the part to do logout UCS.. Doesnt matter, simple simple.. I'll finish it up later.. Anw, after that, went to Young's club room, and that's where i stole the 2 packet of snacks.. Thanks yeah? :D

Now, as i'm typing, i just finished done my RJ and all, and Tiong's rushing me to play alrd.. Meh, yet another inhouse game, cooler term will be, clan war.. Kinda dislike it, need to think one.. Ah well, im gonna sign off now and record down again next time!

OH OH!! Last but not least, doubt that you'll be reading this, but who knows?? Congratz cherry!! For passing all your stations in napfa!! Haha, see, told you that you can do it! :D



Thursday, April 23, 2009

Actually, i think i can really feel contented with my current life.. Woke up today and was glad to see a msg from shermaine, yet to wish me good luck for the day to survive new class.. She's sweet, honestly..

Sch life started 915 today.. When i enter class, it was still half empty.. And when i check my team, im suppose to group up with Joan, a girl from my church.. I thought "ok, not bad, at least someone i know.. Lesser ice to break" To my disappointment though, she came late, and i still need to face 3 other strangers 1st on the 1st meeting.. Even after Joan reached class, situation didnt change much, for we also didnt talk much except for exchanging some glance..

2nd meeting was fun though, for we played some ice breaker game.. But this game is super powerful, for it didnt just break the ice, but it literally melt the whole ice wall down.. Class is not the same anymore after the game.. It goes from graveyard to pasar malam.. And guess what? I prefer pasar malam MUCH MUCH more than graveyard!! :D We discussed some stuffs that we suppose to put in our presentation for 3rd meeting, and after that, most of my teammates need to go for talks and all.. So, i tried to finish up most of the things before going down for lunch with Joan..

3rd meeting started a bit later.. around 2.15 for my classmates said that they dont have time to finish the ppt since they need to go for talks.. Presentation itself were fun too! Differnece in opinion thrown in class is not treated coldly and the faci even let some of us argue to some point before he stop it and give us some explanation.. I wont be able to bear to sit down through other's team ppt usually, but this module however, my eyes couldnt stop staring at the projector screen instead of my com screen.. Maybe it's only today's problem, or maybe this module is really that fun and interesting, but I honestly looking forward till next Thur!

I said: "Oh Lord.. This class is awfully boring again! Can you PLEASE help me to change the situation?? I dont want to lose interest in classes like how i lost mine on monday.."
He said: "I gave you the power to break the ice alrd.. Just swing that sledgehammer.."
I said: "I.....have not enough strength.."
He said: "Ok, here we go... One, two, three!!" *SMASH*
I said: "Oh gosh!! It's broken, it's broken!! I have lots of friends now!!! Thank you Lord!!"
He said: "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you" (Matthew 7:7)

And that's how i ended my day.. Felt more refreshed than ever.. Now, i really looking forward to what He kept for me again 2mr.. AWESOME!! :D:D




Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Wednesday's ending alrd!! That means 3 days after school reopen now.. And guess wad? Im still looking forward for school 2mr.. Haha! I mean, new class new friend.. Maybe something interesting like Tue can happen again.. Ah, what is life,but beautiful mysteries? :D

Woke up quite late today.. Suppose to meet my fyp teammates at 10.. So, morning time is practically quite a rush.. And i only arrive at school at 11.. Lucky things is, my teammates are forgiving.. haha!! We start our discussion imidiately.. The discussions didnt last very long though, since we cant discuss much but the content page and all.. Discussion ends around 1pm and we head home after that..

Slept almost my whole afternoon off.. it's more like on and off type, since as i sleep, shermaine and kristy sms-ed me.. Not that im complaining though.. They really make a good company :D Yeah, well, like i say, afternoon is nt much except for maybe a bit about FYP that i do on the use case specs..

Night time came and dinner is awesome.. We had salmon teriyaki, home made.. i thought it's not gonna be nice, since when i took it up, there's bones.. But it's like after those 2 bones, the rest is all tender meet.. And it's really awesome.. Im typing this and i can feel my saliva multiplied alrd..
Had a few dota games after that.. A few only, really.. And after that we decided to just talk through skype instead of playing game.. Exchanged infos abt tsunami and all.. Quite fun actually..

And as u guys can see, ben been paying me visit in my blog.. So honorable and brave of him.. I thought he can only bark around only.. But now he dare to show off that he's nt chained down also... Quite a big step for a small puppy.. *throw bones and give him praise*

Guess that's all for today then.. Im gonna cont to talk to kristy and my skype friends and sleep after that.. Hope 2mr can wake up on time.. Nights guys!!

Ah shucks.. It's 1am alrd, that means it's counted as wed alrd.. This post is supposedly posted on tue night one.. So yeah.. Here we go

Woke up quite late today.. My grandma woke me up to get ready for school.. Suppose to meet sc and the rest at 830, and i only woke up at 730.. I thought i'm going to be late alrd, and i try to hurry everything up.. But when i board the train and called sc, he told me he still at home.. I straightly ask him to faster do everything up and leave the hse ASAP..

Same class as sc today, so, we head to our class together.. Was kinda hoping that we are in the same team, but apparently, no such luck.. I'm assigned to team 5, and by the time the class start, i'm the only one that's in team 5.. Till a bit later, when a student who came late called Ivan, came to class.. He's supposedly to be my team mate, and thus, team 5 is now 2 person.. Haha!! Then we have others like Han, Kai En to join my team.. And guess what? they turn out to be a really awesome teammates.. I mean, honestly, they crap alot, and within minutes, we are comfortable with each others alrd..

In between break, I flip through tabs in my mozilla and i flipped till my blog.. And i saw a puppy tagging my tagboard!! I mean, that's really brave of him!! He actually take a big step to come out from his own cage to bark!! Well, that of course, with me motivating him through my blog and tagging him in his own cage.. I'm proud of you! Really!! And yeah, im still guessin you'll come to my blog to see what i type about you, so here you are little puppy! a whole paragraph for you!! You can even copy and paste it if you like the paragraph :D

Ah, enuff abt puppy -.- Anw, it's kinda sad when we need to leave class today.. At least for me.. For it will be till next week till i can see my teammates again.. Damn year 3 system.. Everyday new class and new friends.. But well, i guess that's for the better us in working life out there next time..

Lemme see lemme see...what happen at afternoon?? Hmmmmm...nothing much actually.. I dont know why, but these 2 days, i always seems like fall asleep after school.. I mean, i really really feel tired.. which is weird for usually, after school, i'll juz come back home and game... Ah well, maybe after sometime I'll get used to this alrd.. Oh, and according to kristy, today's free cone day and she went with her classmate to get it.. Haha!! And shermaine hurt her arm.. :( She said it's becoz she help out carrying things ytd.. Get well soon yeah? ;)

Okok, like i say, i typed this at 1am, and 2mr im meeting my fyp teammates.. So, i got to sleep alrd.. *yawwwnnnnn*

==================================Day 30 without her===================================
Finally the day came.. It have been 30 days, and i do admit that, during this final few days, I'm kinda tempted to giving myself excuses to increase the time caps.. But the more i think about it, i think you also will agree that there's no more reason for me to do so.. So, today, after 30 days, i declared that the pact that i made myself for myself is over.. Upon clicking the "publish post" button, we really are going to be strangers alrd..

I just wish that.......well, i try to rack my brain to wish something for you, but nothing can really comes up.. So, maybe Ben want to help me instead? Seeing you also the same position as me alrd now? :D Yeah, well, if he cant help, then maybe i can just say all those crap like "wish you all the best for your studies and career"

==================================End of Count up===================================



Monday, April 20, 2009

They sing "It's a new day, but it all feels old.." And I certainly feel so too.. Today's totally brand new day, but somehow, it doesnt feel like much different from ytd.. Well, let me just sums up today's event again then

Woke up early today, which is not a good move, for i slept quite late ytd.. Not as if i want it but the stomachache is really killing me.. Rushed to toilet and relieve the pain and i was amazed or rather shocked, for it is diarrhea.. It causes me to visit the toilet like 3 times.. And after those ping pong, i decided that im not going to sleep back and that's around 7am.. So, i went to bathe and pack my things up, and called zakia, see whether she want to meet up before class starts or not.. She's on bus alrd, and she said she'll be reaching in 40 mins time, so i thought i still can make it.. But when i just reached j8, she called me and told me that she's reaching in 5 mins alrd.. So, we agreed that we'll juz meet in canteen later on..

Events after that are pretty stupid.. I was sitting around with zakia waiting for sinting, wj and young to come before we go to class.. Sounds pretty normal, BUT things is, i dont know that they are C group and im B group.. That means, my class start at 915 and theirs start at 10.. And i still thought i wont late for my 1st day.. I only enter class at 940, whereby everyone is like doing FMT alrd by then.. Oh gosh....

Shermaine said she's coming over to RP to help out in SYF in trcc, and i really really wish i can meet up with her, but the change of schedule of break and all in RP really cause me cant even have some relaxing time.. I mean, all I can do is eat lunch, and when i look at the time, i only have 30 mins left to complete my project.. How frustrating is that?? Argh! Sry Shermaine.. =x

I was so bored in 3rd meeting that i was looking around FB and saw mt and ben break.. (*ssh* this is suppose to be secret only, do not leak it out.. I mean, seriously, dont).. So, i went to ben blog to see how he take it.. And to my amazement, he take it by mocking me! haha!! He was like "well, at least im not being an idiot who do counting up and wadever shit.." or "do you think ur gf going to love u back if u keep doing that?" Now now, let us study about some psychology qn.. What will he be thinking when he's typing that? Think....Think...Think....Anyone get it? Well, idk what u guys got, but to me it seems that after break up, he cant take it easy, so he want to post some emo shit, BUT he cant, coz he mocked me before for being emo.. So, what can he do?? Yes, he can act heroic, and act uber tough and most prolly thinking "no, i cant type something like him! I must be stronger than him! I must look more braver than him! esp after i'm juz a puppy who can bark and not bite!!!!" well, ok, most prolly he wont think abt the last part....BUT I DO!! :D:D What i just do is, tag him with my nick (which i find it weird since he's not tagging me back in my tagboard) saying "woof woof, little puppy barks a lot in it's own cage eh? :D:D" Aww, he's cute... Really.. Guess i found out why mt like him alrd... I mean, who can resist a puppy??? Well, though in this case, this puppy looks a bit retarded and barks a lot though.. Kinda irritating actually..

Met up with CG for dinner later on.. Christon need some help with installing *cough* pirated *cough* game.. And seems like he got difficulty on the crack part.. I didnt manage to help him throughout though, coz Amy wanted to talk to me abt mt's case.. She really want to make sure that I'm fine alrd.. Thx for the concern really, and i really appreciate it, thought it's like 2-3 weeks late though.. Haha! But i do enjoy talking to her just now.. It's like suddenly I can be so frank to her.. What i dont understand is that she said it's perfectly fine and perfectly normal for mt not to talk to me now and it's the best for us.. This kinda crashed with my thoughts that i had all along.. I mean, break alrd means cant be friends? As in, i dont care whether mt want to talk to me or not at this point of time.. She can just do wadever she want and i wont even care, but what i care is, the philosophy that she shared crashed with mine.. Well, perhaps she have reasons to said that, or maybe she can just see things differently from me..

Reach home after that, and after bathe, all i know is i fell into deep slumber.. And when i woke up, there's a few sms from shermaine and kristy.. And for the 1st time, me and shermaine chatted for quite a while, and it's a very pleasing evening.. You made my evening! :D

==================================Day 29 without her===================================
Mm, through you, I learnt much stuff alrd and i really had lots of fun alrd.. And im gonna thank you for all of that.. I mean, without you, i wont travel around singapore and have fun wherever we went.. And not to mention, i wont know Ben, who is somehow is very easy to be provoke whenever im feeling bored.. He really is a good entertainer.. And for that, im sorry to say such things abt ur bf, i guess.. But it really is true!! Oh Ben, you gonna read this too arent u? Thanks a lot man!! :D Ah doesnt matter.. Anw, Amy told me that you are going to move to NP's CG alrd.. Wish you have fun there and be able to make new friends yeah? ;)

Okok, I'm back as promised.. This post is for Sunday (this is because when i look at the time it's 12:37).. This actually means, in less than 10 hour time, i'll be sitting inside RP class, either paying attention to the faci's yapping OR imagining stuffs OR busy doing my own stuff.. In any case, lemme just record down today's event then

Woke up at 830 cos Young woke me up.. Yeah, cant blame him, told him that i'm going to send him to Junction 8.. Well, after washing up and everything, we head down to J8 to the arcade place.. The arcade is not even open, and yet he's banging on the door to claim his specs alrd.. It indeed is a funny scene to watch

Decided to just have brunch outside, and we went to the foodcourt beside the arcade.. Intended to have rice, but then i just realize that they dont have economical rice stall there.. So, in exchange, I walk around and decided on this noodle stall.. When i was standing in front of the stall, i have 2 choice of foods actually, either ban mian or u mian.. Initially, i thought i'll just choose ban mian, coz u mian kinda remind me of her.. Then it occur to me, this cant go on forever.. I mean, what? juz coz this have something to do with the past, that means i cant eat something that i like? So, embracing the fear of recalling, i ordered U mian.. After the meal, we head down to arcade.. This time, to play.. We tried this new arcade machine called raising storm.. It's totally awesome.. It's like an upgrade of crisis zone, but with better gun, multiple gun function, better graphic, etc etc.. Totally enjoy it..

Went home after that, to find that im really really bored....not to mention sleepy.. Chatting with kristy and told her that i'm nt going to nap my afternoon off for this is the last day fo hol alrd.. But well, good weather and soft gust of wind, blew me into deep slumber.. When i woke up, it's like 4pm and i've just wasted like almost my whole afternoon of my last day of holiday! Freaking frustrated for me, and freaking amusing for kristy when i told her.. Ah well, what to do, she is juz pure evil.. :D

Night time is filled with games with both Youngly and Shawn and friends.. Played Enfos with Youngly for warming up, and after that, played some dota games with shawn and the rest.. Playing with them has never been a dull moment.. I mean, there's always something that'll happen.. This is amazing why? It's becoz, after the breaking up, i thought from that point onward, my life's going to be dull, for usually, whenever im bored, i can always depend on her to entertain me.. Well, facts prove me wrong.. This is yet another plus point to my "i think i can do this" attitude..

Well, bottom of the line, this is the final day of the holiday, and upon the clicking of the "publish post", i cant guarantee that my life is going to be super exciting like this anymore.. But i'll promise that i'll still blog as fun as this again.. Till 2mr again..

==================================Day 28 without her===================================
I know you are refering to me.. I know.. And i dont want to justify myself by saying anything.. If you are reading this, give yourself sometime, and think logically.. Think how you act back then and think how you act now.. See the language you use now and see you how you speak now.. I tried to justify myself against my own thought, thinking that you just want to try to be someone else for a while.. But, honestly, you are not getting better but worse.. And as your friend, or even someone who just know you, I do think i have the right to see you be a better person.. This is just what ran through my mind.. You can think about it, or you can ignore the whole thing completely.. Either way, hope everything went well for u



Sunday, April 19, 2009

Heh, seems like i always blog 1 day before like that eh? This post is dedicated for what happened ytd, at saturday

Cant really remember what time i woke up alrd, but all i know is after i wake up, im pretty much bored and the debate within myself whether i should go for arrow or not is raging greatly.. I mean, my hunch ask me to go arrow.. In fact, it's not asking, but trying really really hard to convince me to go.. Whereas, my laziness side, really lazy to travel down to city hall and suntec all by myself.. I let those 2 continue fighting within myself, while i went to do my stuffs

Went to check facebook, hotmail and leo system.. I mean, 2 more days sch's going to reopen, might as well make sure which class am I in and all 1st.. Dont want to go into wrong class and give a bad first impression to people.. And i checked my applications in facebook and hotmail after that.. Nothing new, spam mails, spam mails and more spam mails.. What make the whole morning interesting is nothing more but exploring my new phone and smsing ppl without hesitation for i have UNLIMITED sms now :D:D

Around 11am, God locked my decision of whether should i go to arrow or nt.. Young msg me and said that he's bored.. Planned to go to watch movie, but i thought that it wont be bad to try to ask whether he want to come to arrow or not.. And to my amazement, he agrees to accompany me, but he will need to pass his laptop to his godsis 1st.. So, we were going to meet up after he done with his stuff, and if there's still time, movie, then service..

He's only done at ard 2pm and he only can arrive at bishan at 3pm, and service is starting at 430pm.. So, no more movie.. Head down to suntec and called up derek and join caregroup for preservice and the service itself.. During preservice itself, i was looking around, half hoping that she's around, though hoping she's not around too.. I mean, i thought it's going to be awkward to meet her esp since she's trying so hard to avoid me.. Well, to my amazement, she was not there, or so i thought..

Sermon was nice.. Kinda got sleepy in the middle though.. Not sure why.. I mean, the message is actually talking about my condition more or less, and more often then not, it caught my attention really well.. But that's like for a while only before i change state to sleepiness again.. I think i shall pay more attention next time =x The post service praise and worship is awesome though.. More like, all praises songs which, somehow, make me really high on that moment and forget about all tiredness and sleepiness.. I was really enjoying it, until...........i turned left, and i saw someone was wearing something like what mt used to wear.. So out of curiousity, i looked up and try to catch the face.. And to my amazement, it IS her.. She definitely look a bit different with contacts, or maybe it's something else.. Or is it just becoz it have been sometimes since i saw her? In any case, i didnt put much thought about it anymore and continue enjoying the service till the end..

Had dinner with caregroup after service.. The last time i sat at that foodcourt was like almost 1 year ago.. That time, all poly cluster were sitting together in 1 whole line of tables, but this time, since it's only RP cluster, there's only a few of us, but honestly, it was a fun session.. We left earlier than them, since Young want to take the meatballs that he ordered from Indonesia from my house.. So, we head down to bishan with the intention of taking meatballs only.. But upon arrival, it's only around 9pm, and he said it'll be boring if he's going home straight, since he have no laptop for the night.. So, we decided that we'll juz go to arcade and play till 1 hour before last bus then head to my hse and then he go home..

Arcade closed at 10pm and we were being "chased out" of the shop, and we were walking home to get Young's meatballs.....till suddenly, Young realized he left his specs in arcade.. So, he ran back to the arcade just to find that it is closed and there is no way, to go in anymore.. So, instead of going home, he decided to stayover to my place and go to arcade to claim his specs at the 1st thing in the morning the next day..

So, we arrived home, and we rested and that is when i suppose to blog down all those things that happen ytd.. But laziness got over me again, and i postponed it till now.. So, for the consistency of events and wadever crap, im gonna stop here for ytd post and blog again later at night about today's even.. Till later..

==================================Day 27 without her===================================
You do look great when I saw you.. I was just wondering where's Ben.. I mean, did he not join you for service? After service, Young actually asked me, how come Ben is not with you or whether you'll be meeting him after the service.. And what came out from my mouth even shocked me a little bit: "Dude, I.dont.care"



Saturday, April 18, 2009

I juz woke up and i juz practically fiddling away with my new phone, so, let me just record down what happened ytd before i forgot about it then.. Again, with the recalling style, this post will be for ytd..

Woke up at around 9am, thanks to the alarm and apparently i cant go back to sleep anymore.. So, i went to check my msn and facebook, and guess wad? It's not only me who cant go back to sleep :D
Chatted with zakia for a while, and feeling very bored.. NO! it's not becoz she bores me, but becoz i think there's just no topic we could talk about at so early in the morning.. So i just check my facebook around or something..

Nothing's on at morning time, except for some warcraft campaign game.. and it really bores me AGAIN, for i've cleared it for heaven-knows-how-many times.. So i practically can even predict, what unit will be best to bring and where the enemy will attack from and such.. well, not all of the time, but most of the case..wel

Afternoon came and I head down to Dhobby Gaut to meet up with Jing Wen.. Met up to settle the phone plan that i've been dying to get.. I'm in power 100 (or izzt power talk 100?) Well, in any case, i changed my number alrd.. It's 9066-4325.. I'll spam msg to u guys later though, but this is just in case if i missed out you guys number.. And to come along with it, i bought a new phone under contract.. It's SE W595 series.. Quite ironic that in the shop i told Jing Wen that i'm going to take care of this new phone well and when the starhub employee pass it for me to check, it kinda slipped out of my hand and ALMOST fall down to the ground.. Haha!! Walked around PS and to cathay cineplex after that as we chat.. It have been some time since we actually meet up, and she still doesnt changed.. As lame as ever :D But i guess that's what make us 'clicked'

Head down to Boon Lay after that to meet up with lynn.. It was a pleasant meeting and she's taller than what i expected =x Or izzt becoz the last girl that i recently knew, that will be mt, is shorter than what i expected? In any case, we had dinner at jurong point.. It was uber crowded, i swear.. We had to even share tables with other people.. Lynn is pretty interesting though, it's like i went to get my drink and when i came back to our table, i saw her practically chatting with the total strangers she just met.. I mean, sociable is one thing, this is uber sociable sia! haha!

Watched movie after that.. 17 again.. Lynn was excited and said the movie is uber nice.. To me, i think the movie is an ok with the rating of 3/5.. I mean, ok, the movie is nice, story is funny, actor's good and stuff like that.. But the thing happens in the movie is kinda out of logic.. Time travelling? Maelstorm in New York's river? A bit crappish if you ask me, but then again, it's a fictional movie, so yeah..

Reached home only at 12+ and i straightyly went online in skype and join my mates to defend the ancients civilization.. There are new heroes in the ai version we played.. Some are good, and some are, well...bad.. Or maybe we just dont know how to use it yet.. Fun map.. Should've try it again later..

==================================Day 26 without her===================================
Quite ironic, when i'm still typing the number 10+, i cant wait for it to end.. Now, when it's 26 alrd, somehow, i cant bear to look forward

PS: I will update what happen today at night later



Thursday, April 16, 2009

Yet another exciting day and fun day just passed by.. I cant imagine that time really flies when you really enjoy ur time cheaply :D Let me juz elaborate then..

I knew i wont be able to wake up early today, since i played dota till late at night ytd.. So, guess what i do, i set 3 consecutive alarm which is at 8am, 830 and 845am.. 3 layer of defense, i call it.. Haha! Well, i woke up on the 2nd line.. That will be 830am.. And i bathe and pack up and get ready for the day..

Armed with new hoodies in new sling bag and American Gods book, i march on toward the bus stop and head to jurong east with the hope that my friends will be all ready alrd.. My hunch told me to call them to ask them to get ready by the time i reach bishan mrt, but i shrug it off, thinking that it'll juz make me as if im rushing them while im still at bishan.. So i decided to just listen to music and head to jurong east by myself 1st.. But for the umpteenth time, my hunch prove me right again.. By the time i reached jurong, all my friends are still at home and the one that's ready to leave the house is only sc.. So i asked him to head down to jurong straight.,

Head down to clementi AGAIN to the lan shop.. We really are tempted with the promotion.. 3 hours for only 3 dollars! Upon arrival, we played L4D straight.. Oh anw, today's member is me, youngly, wj and sc.. Though sc can only stay for a while though, since he need to go back to msia.. You can really tell that sc is addicted, i mean, 1-2 hours is really not enuff to play L4D, and yet, he still insist he want to go juz to shoot some zombie ass.. Haha!! But it really is fun! :D

Well, nothing much happen today alrd actually.. Coz almost the whole day i camp in the lan shop.. It might sounds boring, but when you play it with your friends and feel the excitement, nothing can stop you but devine intervention :D

When i walked home though, as i listen to the GC songs that i transfered to phone, memories start flashing through my mind.. No, it's not abt mt, but abt Sue.. I was walking pass KCSS and as i run my fingers through the fence, suddenly the memories become so vivid.. It was afternoon and she told me that she's sick that day.. And when i called her, her voice really was heavy, like those type that you'll have when you have bad flu.. I used to call her princess and i still can remember what i ask her that day on that moment on that spot "So, princess is finally having some common people food?" i asked teasingly "Haha! Yeah, and since my royal maid is not here, I need to cook myself loh! So, it's not just some common porridge, kay?!" she answered kiddingly too.. And as i recalled that, it make me think.. That's like almost 2 years ago incident alrd, and i still can remember it so clearly.. It makes me wonder that will what i talked to mt at certain spots of singapore will be recorded so strongly in my mind too? Well, about that, we'll see next time :D

==================================Day 25 without her===================================
I used to say "time flies when you enjoy it" and this time, time does really flies for me too.. Suddenly only, i need to type 25 alrd.. Does this mean i really enjoy this also? I really do wonder..



Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Im exhausted now.. Been out since morning till late at night -.- Lots of exciting stuffs happen today, and it really make me think "perhaps, i really can do this.. It doesnt seems tough at all" That is, if you know what i mean by that statements..

My day starts kinda early today.. Somehow, I can woke up early though.. I reached woodlands by 10am, like how i've said clearly to both Youngly and Shao Cheng.. Young reached a bit late, but the late are still bearable one, but sc's late, is like 30 mins late.. When i called him after i reached woodlands, he still dare to tell me "oh, im still at home.. Sorry sorry" Typical malaysian... HAHA!!

Head down to RP after that.. Apparently, today is the 1st day of orientation for those 1st year student (read: newb).. I think I just found the 1st advantage after breaking up.. Now, i can really feel free to check out the girls without feeling guilty! :D:D And to top it off, it's not only me who do that, Young's eyes are even more sharper, which make the hunts goes really really fun. Haha!! Ok, kinda got sidetracked.. After configuring laptop and changing the pw, we head down to xbox room and play xbox game.. Seems like Sc are nt used to play console game so it's up to me and Young to save the world.. The game: Halo 3..

By the time we done playing, time flies really fast and my watch starts to beep, indicating that it's 3.10pm alrd.. We head out for lunch in canteen before we went to have a survey.. Why i do survey you ask? The ans is coz they give out a lovely 10 bucks just for 45 mins of my time that i'm gladly to waste.. How's that? :D

Used that 10 bucks to bought headset in causeway after that.. Well, it's a cheapo one, but as long as it's useable, who cares? And honestly speaking, by then, im kinda a bit lazy to go to lan which is in clementi alrd, but sc's going back to msia 2mr alrd, so he wont be able to play with us.. So, me, wj and sc head down to clementi to visit this legendary lan shop which wj claim only cost 1.5 per hour..

To my disappointment, wj's claim is out-to-date alrd.. Promotion's over and it's actually costing us 2.5 per hour.. So how? What you mean so how? I'm definitely not coming all over to clementi just to face 2.5 per hour and go back to bishan without playing -.- So we sit down there and payed 1 hour game time 1st, thinking that we wont be long playing.. But apparently, assumptions always prove me wrong

We played Left 4 Dead.. Sc still a beginner, so wj and me does all the job to take the damage and deal the damage from both the zombie AND sc -.- I think out of 10 bullets sc shot, around 4-5 bullets nested on my back instead.. But well, he's a quick learner.. It took me really quite some time to learn the movement system when the 1st time i learn to play cs, and by the end of the game session, sc knew how to assist, move around, pick up items and all alrd.. Definitely a fast learner.. Next thing we need to teach him is to differentiate human and zombies only :P Anw, we played that for almost 3 hours.. To think still want to play for 1 hour only... That also becoz it's getting too late and i really need to head home alrd, before my parents skin me alive.. Well, doesnt matter, 2mr im still going to play with my friends....AGAIN :D

I was walking home instead of taking bus when i reached bishan, with new headset plugged into my ears while my phone played those old songs that i stored in my phone.. The chilly night wind and the emo songs that i stored into the phone bring my mind back to past again.. Funny things is, I'm not even thinking and regreting that we broke up alrd, coz i asked myself, if i were still together with her right now, is it even possible for me to go to lan till this kind of time and walk home so relaxly while thinking of her? It'll be most likely for me to hurry home while smsing her if we were still together.. It really have been awhile since i actually walk and enjoy the walk

Overall, i really had fun today and i'm really looking forward for 2mr

==================================Day 24 without her===================================
I read ur blog recently, and im really glad that you are doing really well, though im a bit disappointed at the change of your language.. You used to stop me saying the f word and though it's hard for me at beginning, i begin to use it lesser and lesser.. And now, when i see you typing it out like as if it's a totally normal word to use, it really sadden me.. I asked myself constantly, what are you actually trying to prove acting like that? Are you trying to say "im the new mt now! more vicious and more aggresive"? Coz all it seems to me is more like you are the old mt but trying to look more like an ah lian that you used to be so despised.. It's 24 days alrd, and time is really running short alrd.. Dont get worse and worse le.. I'll still think of you when i feel like thinking of you.. :)



Tuesday, April 14, 2009

70th post!! Mm, kinda skipped 2 days of recording didnt i? Well, I can explain myself, honest!
Wj, sinting and me really had a blast in Indonesia and we really had lots and lots of food there that by the time we are back to hotel, we really really are exhausted and tired.. So, pardon me for not recording it down these 2 days.. Anw, u can juz see sc or wj's blog for the things we done in Indo for the past 2 days.. Im freaking sure that they will blog it down one..

Anw, lets start about today then.. If you want me to summarize it, i can find a very very suitable word for it: "EXHAUSTING".. If you want the details, carry on reading..

I was dreaming about something, when suddenly hell break loose.. I heard the morning call ringing and wj pick up and say "yes" or something like that and not long after that, the alarm on my phone ring.. It's like suddenly become so noisy that i cant even go back to sleep.. Want to know wad make it worse? That inicident happen at FIVE am Indo time.. I mean, i know that's the time we need to wake up, but i still cant believe im up and cant go back to sleep at 5.. Well, we get ready and all and we leave hotel at 6am when my parents came to fetch us

Had lunch in airport after that.. And head toward mrt station to meet my cousin and also go back home.. But apparently, my cousin also need to go to bishan, and she said there's a direct bus.. So, i left wj and sc alone for their "quality time" and went to take bus with my cousin to bishan instead.. I thought i'll sleep all the way in the bus, but apparently, my cousin proves out to be a really good accompaniance.. We crap almost all the way, and before we knew it, we are at bishan alrd.. That's really awesome..

Walk for a while, till i reach my block, and when i saw the bench on the void deck, it's like as if i still can see me and mt sitting there juz before i go back Indonesia last last time.. I shrugged the thought off and cont walking to the lift and finally, home! When i enter my house, I have this weird feeling as if my hse is somewhere alien and yet familiar.. Haha, that is if you guys get what i mean =x

Entered my room to unpack my stuff and when I enter the room, idk why, but it's like the emotions are back again.. Like suddenly i still cant believe i broke up with mt alrd and stuff like that.. I didnt want to put much thought about it and i went to wash up.. Well, it works, after the shower, i have that "meh,doesnt matter! She's no one alrd anw -.-" attitude back again.. Speaking abt the idc attitude, it's like suddenly I can laugh at my own patheticness last time alrd.. I mean, wad zakia say is right, wtf do I mean by travel against time while she move on alrd? How the fuck does that make sense? A hunt is a hunt, does it mean you catch something alrd, then when it escape alrd, the next hunt will be the same hunt as last hunt? -.- Haha, sry guys for giving u guys such a hard time for the past few weeks.. :D:D

To tell the truth, as i type this, and need to recall back what i done and see and feel just now, it does make me a bit melancholic again, but well, idc.. Haha

==================================Day 23 without her===================================
Im tired....of recalling and keep dragging



Saturday, April 11, 2009

OKAY! Finally about today.. Lets seeeeee....

Went for breakfast on the morning, around 7am with my parents, and after that, i tend the shop for a while.. Like those pack stuff job and all..

10am come and sinting called me that they are boarding the plane alrd.. YES!! THEY ARE COMING TODAY!! IN FACT, AS IM TYPING NOW, THEY ARE DISCUSSING SOMETHING IN CHINESE IN A VERY FAST PACE!! Tsk tsk, unsensitive bastards... HAHAHAHA!!

Anw, anw, lemme cont 1st :D
me and my dad went to airport to fetch them from airport and the next thing is we get checked in to the hotel in the heart of the town.. By the time we are settled and everything, we are pretty starving alrd, and i ask my dad to drop us in 1 of the mall.. We had pizza........ok, TWO pizzas,and soup, and garlic bread and drinks, and to top it off, WITH CHEAP PRICE!! check sinting's blog and he'll elaborate in more detail.. Went to arcade for a while after that, to let us digest abit, before we went to another snack junction..

We head to a "food court" to have mie rebus after that, and ice cendol.. Wj dont really enjoy it, but sc is like 'vaccum-ing' all the food.. Haha!! At least that gave me a bit sense of relieve that im nt being a bad host.. At least they are satisfied with what i had for them.. haha!! But then again, what is Pekanbaru if not food paradise? Haha!!

Ok, my dad just called and me and wj and sinting need to head down alrd for dinner.. Then, i guess i'll blog more again later! CYA!


==================================Day 20 without her===================================
FOOD!!!

Hello Hello!! Im back again (to blog, lynn,to blog :D).. Lets see, i dont have time to blog ytd, so, yeah, i'll juz blog abt ytd now.. Same style, i'll post 2 posts and this post will be suppose to be for 2mr one..

Say...Lets see, it's good friday today.. and when i woke up in the morning, i tried to go back sleep again, but i cant.. So, i decided to talk to God a bit.. He revelate to me again yet another interesting point that will help me in life.. I cant really remember what we talked about anymore, but I am sure, it change my point of view of certain doubt of mine..

In any case, we had dim sum for breakfast.. Yeah, me and my family.. Meh, my effort to "diet" for 2 weeks, all gone by 2 days of mass eating.. Ah well, when i go back to sg, then i'll start dieting again then.. Haha!!

Afternoon came and me and my family went to my cousin house.. Heh, quite some time since i saw her alrd.. We chat up and exchange stories about school and everything.. Haha!! Her new house is really nice and spacy! Not to mention, her house complex have a swimming pool which is juz located like right behind her house!! And since the complex is not fully sold yet, so, not much ppl using it and it gave the impression that the swimming pool is like her own! Neahz, dont have the chance to go swim there, but i'm quite sure the experience to have a swimming pool behind ur hse is a pretty amazing one!

Night time came, and me and my family went out for dinner, with my cousin family too.. It's coz her aunt, which is like my dad's cousin came over to my town and stay at her house, and my dad thought of treating them to dinner and thus....voila.. It was quite a feast.. It's like we order everything per 2 portion.. Awesome dinner!!

Ok, i'm just going to cut the post short since i cant rem much anymore about ytd.. Damn the laziness within me to go online ytd.. Ah well, future me, u are just need to live with it.. Who ask your past self not so dilligent? O_o


==================================Day 19 without her===================================
*Yawn*



Thursday, April 9, 2009

Hello Hello!! :D Gosh, i really am happy today.. Wake up late, got all the stuff i need to get, wad else can i ask for? Haha!! So, lemme get into detail then

Woke up quite early this morning, thanks to that freaking intense fight dream.. It's like those half awake, half asleep type of dream where you know you kinda awake, but the dream is still vivid and u still want to dream.. That's what happen to me today, kinda woke up, and when i'm about to deliver a high kick, i kinda kicked the wall which wake me up instantly.. Kinda retarded, i know.. Anw, that's like ard 6am indo time, and i decided to go back to sleep.. But when i try to go back to sleep, idk why and how, i kinda dreamt and thought of her again.. Meh, wad a disappointment.. Anw, after some toss and turn, i decided that im nt gonna sleep anymore, so i just woke up and watch some tv show till my dad came in and ask me to get ready for the day

1st thing we do once we are out of the house is........breakfast definitely! haha!! Yeah, well, it's kinda 11am, and i'm nt sure what to call that meal is but oh well, me and my family kinda famished by then, and we just went to have some breakfast.. Wonton noodle is wad we had (however u spell it lah hor).. Straight after that, i went over to the saloon which is just like the opposite of where we had our breakfast.. Cut my hair shorter and dye it up.. IMO, i kinda look like SS I or II of Goku.. Well, at least for now.. When it grow longer alrd, idk wad it'll look like.. HAHA.. Most importantly, i thought it's going to be boring when the dying process took place, but apparently, onlining with my phone cures it.. Thx Zakia and Young :D HAHA

It took ard 2 hours for everything to be done, and by the time it's done it's ard 2pm Indo time.. So, me and my family head to the shopping mall for the rest of my stuff.. Initially, i cant find the hoodie that i wanted :( so, we went around to find my new sling bag, which also gone from the shop alrd.. By then, im really kinda pissed coz i thought, i wont be able to get what i want anymore.. Oh, bt u know wad? He really had a great sense of humor.. We went ard the mall, finding the next item: shoes.. And in that sports store, u know what i found? The bag that i wanted from the previous shop! And to top it off, that shop offer 20% discount if i buy 2 stuffs at 1 go! So, not only i found my "lost" bag, i got yet another 20% disc for my bag AND my shoe! Woweee!! Haha!!

*tik tok tik tok* time's ard 3pm by then, and my dad said he wanna sit ard cafe for tea break, and we sat ard excelso and ordered a few.....foodstuffs? I mean, i know there is this term for it, but i cant think of it now.. so, yeah.. The food come around kinda late, and by the time we finished our food, it's ard 5pm alrd, and we decided not to have dinner anymore, for we are EXTREMELY full by then..

My watch indicate 7pm sg time, which is 6pm Indo time by the time we reach next shopping mall to find my hoodies.. Went to yet another sports station, and found this billabong jacket.. Looks nice and material's good.. So, within the next 5 min, the hoodies transfered from the hanger to the shopping bag and we decided to head back home alrd..

After some detour to get my dad's medicine and dinner (just bread and some stuffs, he said he's still hungry), we arrive home ard 7pm Indo time.. And, boy, am i tired or am i tired? 2mr's good friday (DONT LOOK AT ME IF IM WRONG, THAT'S WHAT KRISTY SAID!! =x) and in my head now, the hillsong's song called "Shout unto God" song keeps playing and playing.. It juz played in my head suddenly just like that.. Weird eh? But i like it.. haha!!

Oh, last but not least, seems like God trying to tell me something AGAIN.. This time, from a radio telecast.. It was saying abt this man, who walk around a mall and saw this jacket.. When he ask for the price, the seller say 400k rupiah, and he bargain it to 250k rupiah.. The seller keep refusing, and yet lower the price, till 285k rupiah finally.. And yet, this man still refuse it.. Then, his wife ask "Hon, are you not sad and regret that you didnt buy that jacket? I mean, it's only 25k diff only" and he said "nope, why would i? initially when i walk around the mall, i have no intention to get it.. I only have the intention to get it when i saw the jacket, and yet, i cant get it with the price I desired.. So, all i need to do is juz forget about it totally and be like how I am before i saw that jacket"

At this point, Lord talked to me and revelate to me this point "Heard that? Think about it, initially, you have not much intention either to have a gf or wadsover.. So, now you broke up, which means, she is not what you desired - a girl that also seek long term relationship, so all you need to do is just forget about her, and revert your emotion back to 1 year ago - a state where you only want some fun and chase after girls and fool around."

At this point, all i can do is just nod silently and agree with Him.. I really miss my old self, the William that said "What's a gf really for? I mean, we have friends and all to do the 'gf job'.." and stuffs like that.. I know it's nt gonna be easy to be that old self again, but im sure, if raditya can, and other people can, so will William :D:D HAHAHA!!

PS: I would really really like to include the "Shout unto God" song in this post, but indo inet slowness really prevent me from doing it.. So, if you wanna hear it, go youtube and find it.. It's really really really awesome and spirit stirring song :D

==================================Day 18 without her===================================
*tik tok tik tok* time goes kinda slow.. :( HURRY THE FUCK UP!!



Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Ok, honestly, what you guys want me to blog if it's nt abt myself? I mean, this is my blog, and im suppose to blog about someone else? Zakia, zakia, i still rem wad u thaught me and i wont fall for ur trick.. "If you're gonna care of what people have to say; you cant LIVE your life" So, i wont care about wad you guys gonna say and still gonna cont to blog abt wad happen to me daily :D

Today's kinda the last day of me working "full time" on the shop alrd, for there will be holidays for the next 2 days. 2mr (9/4/09) will be election day in Indonesia but me and my parents decided not to give a damn about who is chosen and all, so we are nt gonna vote. And the day after will be the death of Christ day, which i forgot what's the special name for it.. Go ahead and condemn me and say "boo, wad a bad christian you are!" and all, but,quotting for my friend's phrase "you think i care what you say??" HAHA!! For whoever that gets it, feel free to LAUGH again :D

Well, anw, like i say, it's the last day of me working full time today, and by Sat, Wj and Sinting gonna come over alrd, and i only need to work halfday.. Wew!! Time flew really fast! haha!! Ok, while we are on the "last day" topic, this is also the last day of me having black hair.. Yeah, im gonna dye my hair and cut it up 2mr.. 2mr will be the, lets say, "makeover" day? Okay, well, nt that extreme, juz slight changes, like cutting hair, dying hair, new jacket, new sling bag and new shoes.. Gonna be a busy day 2mr.. Meh

Anw, lets recap today.. It's an extremely busy day today.. I dont know how and i dont know why either. For i thought, if the all the delivery cars left the shop alrd, that means no more stuff to do (read: extreme slacking for the day) But the jokes on me and instead of the whole day slacking, i need to lift stuffs up and down and pack more stuffs.. Yeah, yeah, u guys might thought "wait, isnt that wad u usually do everyday?" well, yeah, but today is even MORE.. By ard 2-3pm, im really drained up and juz can sit down on the chair lifelessly.. *Groan*

To top it off, idk why, but suddenly my phone cant access inet anymore, and that means, i cant get online on phone or wadsover anymore! To.be.cut.off.from.inet.is.a.real.pain.in.the.ass.. It's like, suddenly you are isolated from civilization and everything goes back to primitive way to communicate!! Huh? What kind of primitive way u asking? *cough* well......sms? =x Yeah, well, u get my drift...or at least that's what i hope, else, go knock ur head 3 times on the wall, and u should get what i mean alrd..

Okay okay, that sums today's event alrd.. Cant wait for 2mr.. ;)

==================================Day 17 without her===================================
Doing fine and doing great.. Rock on dude!



Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Wow, Tuesday alrd.. Suppose to go out with my cousin today, but she cant make it, and same goes with me.. She need to stay at home for her facial medicine wadever thingy to dry off, while there is no car available for me to drive.. So, today went as per normal.. Take-care-of-the-shop type of day..

Well, at least today's nt that boring.. Went online at afternoon and saw zakia and we start crapping and discussing about BMDP.. Gave quite a point and quite an interesting opinion there.. Well, wadever it is, i cant be bothered anymore.. Need to go offline not long after that for lunch.. After lunch though, i get online again on phone and talked to her a bit again, and she need to go off nt long after.. Saw Sud after that, and i start discussing with him again.. Well, instead of slapping me, he gave me a pat in the back instead.. So, to all authorized personel, i hereby declare that BMDP is a no go.. Sry to trouble you guys so much and cancelling it suddenly like that.. Ah well..

Cruising around ppl's blog and i found out something very funny.. Apparently, some dogs if challenged face to face, will not fight and pretend to act cool and walk away.. But behind the back, they'll start barking out loud, pretending that they won over the situation and comes out as a victor and make people say "Wow...that dog's brave! Bark so loud!" But honestly guys.....they dont bite.. So please, dont be so afraid of this kind of dogs.. Yeah? :D

Huh? Wad's that? Wad breed u ask? Okay, lemme brief u guys a bit about dogs then (Lynn, see! it's not only about my daily life! I even include infos about dogs!) So you see, i dont know wad breed of dog is this, for it is so rare, and yet it still exist among us.. What i can tell you and brief you is the attitude of the dogs.. *cough* shall we begin the lecture then?

A few examples that I can pick are:

• They like to challange others 1st. So, what you mean by this prof?

Okay, lemme tell u 1st.. Will is good, no need for the prof.. Okay, so, in this scenario, the dog will pretend to be cool and all aggresive.. Barks a lot, often scold fuck like no body business.. Oh shit, did i juz left the biggest clue?? Well, like i say, at this stage, they are aggresive till you thought they'll bite you.. Even i thought that it will bite me, but guess what? When i shout at it a bit, it ran with tails between the leg! Amazed?? I mean, WOW! It barks like the whole world dogs bark put together, and when u shout a bit, it ran!! Well, that's not all, next point is

• They try to take revenge

"So, they ran and they take revenge? How?" Is that what goes in ur mind? Well, now, the dog know that it cant win face to face battle alrd, so, how is he, oops, i mean, it, going to impress it's surroundings then? Guess guess, how?? Exactly, if u cant go higher, u make other looks like they go lower.. And in this case, this dog will try to boast around his other exploits that he achieved alrd, which totally have no link with the fight he lost previously.. So he'll go "Oh! I won the bowling contest!" while the real fight is actually about....well, something else.. Sigh...gentleman, oh oops, gentleDOG much? Tsk tsk

• Final point.. Now, they try to turn the whole situation story to suit himself

At this stage, what the dog will try to do will be trying to attack the opponent back again with facts that he didnt even know.. Like for example, quoting from what it ever said "...has his 1st gf".. Ok, this dog is trying to talk about me.. Hmm? Amazed that dogs talk to me? Yeah, well, this dog is somewhat idiotically genius.. My point is, he didnt even know his fact, and he try to fight back this way.. This is honestly a freaking stupid move.. Sigh...dogs nowadays.. They juz try so hard to be human that they didnt realize that they cant...they simply cant...

Well, that conclude my whole presentation about dogs.. *bow* thank you for ur kind attention.. Oh oh, did i mention that this breed of dog like to look mature? without knowing that when they do that, they are juz making themself looking more and more immature? Yes yes, if u guys know who/what im talking about, you guys prolly having a good laugh now.. So, give me some credits yeah? :D

==================================Day 16 without her===================================

Havent had so much fun since i came back from singapore.. *snicker*



Monday, April 6, 2009

Wowee! Yet another early release by the boss aka my mum.. Anw, lets record down wad i wanna say yeah?

Read finish the raditya dika book that i bought ytd.. In this book, yet i feel like God trying to tell me something again.. This is not like the 1st time, i mean, GC told me the same thing, and nw Dika tell me the same thing? more than coincidence dude.. Well, wad they told me is this: to let go.. Lemme share you this story of Dika.. (Eh, no, im not plagirising! im juz sharing, honest!)

In this story of his, he said, he was sitting in a waiting room and he saw a few ppl in it.. he saw an african ppl, a caucasian lover, and someone else (i cant rem).. Then he said "to me, everyone here is just normal.. I mean, you see them, they really are normal.. But how you know what's inside? Maybe the african is someone who have terminal disease? or maybe the couple just fought 1 months ago and almost broke up? But you wont know, coz human just seems like that from the outside.. Same goes for me.. People will see me as the cheerful, all-smile, dika.. But they wont know, that i just broke up last week" At this point, i thought "wow..true.. human tends to put on hard case, trying to be something they arent that no one actually know wad's happening inside.." Anw, cont on

"Your friends and ppl who talk to you, whenever you tell them abt the problem you face, most often they'll say 'yeah i understand how you feel' but NO! Truth is they dont know! How will they know about how you feel? the pain and all??" and at this point, it dawned at me again "Maybe he's right again.. Think about it, when i dont feel it, i tell my friend this and that, advicing them not to be down and all.. And i can do that becoz im nt feeling wad she's feeling. Now when im in her condition, i realize, almost all the stuff that i said, it didnt work"

And the final and most important piece that i think really struck me is "Coz that's how human work.. They dont care about what happen to you.. Your prob, is your prob.. And while we still facing the prob, people move on.. And if you dont move on, you got left behind" at this point, i realize.."there's someone else out there that feel the same" (haha, zakia, recalled this line?) and that means, it really is time for me to pull myself together alrd.. I realize, yeah, being with mt is fun, i mean, honestly, going almost everywhere in sg, travelling here and there, skipping schools and all.. But how long do i want to be trapped in that coconut shell instead of looking at the whole world that's larger than that shell? It may nt be instantenous, the forgetting and let go part, but from this point onward, it will be much easier for me alrd..

And thus, im going to change my "count up" title to:

==================================Day 16 without her===================================

How fun is replacing and modifying memory? It's like, you are just doing stuffs to forget abt me, but will you?

Lunch break, and my mum let me use inet coz she havent finish cooking yet.. Ah well, short recap on what happened juz now and wad i forgot to blog ytd then..

Today starts out fine, like those typical morning, except my parents drag me out of bed early in the morning and ask me to have breakfast with them.. It aint that bad, i mean, go out and all.. at least not until i reach the coffee shop and saw the calender that's hanging on the wall.. It said "6 April".. It dampens my mood greatly.. To other people, it's juz yet another 6th of something.. Maybe even to her now, it's juz yet another 6 something.. Why bother? I know i promised myself to let go alrd, but at times, stuffs like this still triggers memories.. Like how 25 something will trigger my memory too.. Ah well, back to my shop after that.. Time kinda flies fast after that.. Usuall stuff, pack some stuffs, lift some goods, and before i know it, 11am alrd.. Wew, i hope next few days its going to be like this also

Next, i just go online with my phone.. Talk to some of my friends and check my blog and all.. It's amazing wad you can do with a phone that can access to inet.. Haha!! Oh yeah, forgot to blog it down ytd.. The phone straps that i go on my phone, the straps finally broke off from the chain.. Tsk, such a disappointment.. Thought it's gonna last.. *Sigh* And when it broke, wad ran in my head is like that scene in Bridge to Terabithia.. When the enchanted rope broke off that part.. "It cant be.. It cant juz break like that.. It's impossible" Honest, that's wad in my mind.. juz for a while though.. Haha!!

PS: To all authorized personel.. I'm seriously thinking of cancelling BDMP.. Give me your opinion...IN PRIVATE. Thanks a lot



Sunday, April 5, 2009

Sunday finally.. That means, 5 more days slaving in the shop, and i'll be over to the hotel with Wj and Sinting alrd.. Wew!

Went out from morning today with family.. Cruising around in the car, stopping every now and then juz to eat and eat and eat.. Gosh, I'm sure going to put on some weight.. But then again, what is Indo, if not because of the food.. Haha!! Went shopping after that, for groceries and all.. And I swear, in Indo, once my parents means shopping for groceries, it's almost same as "lets rob the whole shop off and leave them with almost no stock" Really....insane shopping spree -.-

Now, it's 5pm Indo time, and I need to sit all alone here at home.. Coz my parents went massaging and all.. That doesnt sounds bad is it? Here come the worse part: with the risk that there will be a blackout within 1 or 2 hour time.. More bad news: My parents will only be back around 7-8pm.. If this is sg, nope, it wont sound bad.. Why will it sound bad? Blackout, call some friends, went out till dawn, come back home with an innocent face and say "But there is blackout...." In Indo, gosh, it's like, im trapped at home with nothing to do except to stare at blank spaces in the darknes.. Wad's lacking is a razor knife and some slits on my wrists and i'll be the same as....well, you figured it out..

Anw, good news is I juz bought the final book of Raditya Dika that previously i didnt have.. And right after this, if nothing else happen, i'll finish it off at 1 go :D Ah...Indo's such a paradise, if only without the parents, boredom, restriction, etc etc..

Ok.. I guess this will be all for today.. I'm full, I'm tired, and I'm going to read finish my new book and watch finish the dvds that i rent juz now.. And here comes Zakia.. Well, i guess i'll juz talk to her 1st then.. Till my next post, cya!

==================================Day 15 after break up===================================

No data. except.."OMFG" *shake head*



Saturday, April 4, 2009

Woo!! Finally it's weekend here.. Yeah yeah, wise-asses, you guys probably say, "woot the fark? Weekend start ytd dumbass" Well, here's a news for you, Indo work for 6 fucking working day, so dont push it, lazy ass.. :D

My mum let me up early today.. Guess i irritated her much down in the office.. Haha!! Not complaining though, except i need to blog a little bit early, which means, the day's not ending yet, and yet, im recording it alrd.. So, might miss some part of it.. Well, lets have a quick recap on the day, shall we?

Morning ends rather fast today.. 2 cars need to left to transport goods out, and we need to do final check on the stuffs that the employee load ytd.. It took quite a while, and by the time I'm done, my dad need to go out of town alrd, and i need to take care of the shop.. Well, packed some stuffs for 2 stores and by then, it's alrd 10am in the morning.. And, if u forget, driving lesson start at 10, so yeah... Drove around the city, for the last time with that plate saying that I'm still learning.. 15 hours of learning to drive, finally end with "You are doing fine, just keep it this way and drive carefully yeah?" from the instructor.. I FINALLY cleared my driving lesson!! Psyched!

Afternoon went rather.....idk.. Slo-ast? Well, it's really boring at beginning, and it get quite interesting in the end.. Done almost all the job that need to be done by ard 2pm, and juz need to check the stock in my shop, and it's done by ard 3.. By then, i have tons of time to bug my mum till she cant take it and let me up by 4pm.. Heh, maybe should do this again on Mon.. =x

It's sat today, so, gonna have dinner with family later on.. 2mr will be a long day though.. Gonna buy all those stuff i need to buy (i think..) else it will be on the other day when we have holiday.. Ah well, back-to-school shopping, here I come.. Haha!!

Well, cant online for long now.. Meh, damn the not-unlimited inet -.-

==================================Day 15 after break up===================================

No data.



Friday, April 3, 2009

Okay.. It's 6pm Indo time both Sud and Zakia is not online.. Grr, where are u guys???

Anw, do you guys ever feel that time move reaaaallly slow? Like, you thought you done lots of stuffs alrd, and when u looked at the time, woot! only 5 minutes have passed?! Ever feel like that? That is exactly what happen to me this morning.. Done moving the stuffs out from warehouse to shop, done helping with moving the cars out and everything, and it's only 10 mins.. Like, wtf??

Driving lesson today is at 10am, and it's a 2 hour session.. I want to juz finish it ASAP.. Coz honestly, next week will be kinda busy with all the outings.. It went well today, i guess.. Except for the turning and all.. I juz hope 2mr, the final lesson, will really go smoothly.. As in, u know, it's final alrd, dont want to screw it up before i drive my own car.. Hope it will be good 2mr then..

Afternoon went rather fast.. Employee start to give attitude and try to go on "strike".. Dad ask me to handle it and.....not try to boast, but im proud of myself :D Haha! It went well, and all the stuffs loaded on time before the shop need to close.. Wew, He told me it's going to be a long day today, and indeed it's a long day today.. Hope 2mr can be over a little more...faster.. haha!!

==================================Day 14 after break up===================================

U lied to me and u know yourself what you are lying to me about.. If you remembered that i told you that i hate to know people who betray me, and lying is betraying of trust, and you done it with the thought so that i can forget about you and give up on you, you have certainly succeed.. Thanks for all the time you have spent with me all along.. To think i still thought you are someone who's "respectable" and "cautious" and all.. You disappoint me, just like how I've disappoint myself..



Thursday, April 2, 2009

Wew, end of the day finally.. Been a long and tiring day today.. Was in shop for most of the day today (like its gonna change next time -.-), lots of our order came today, and me and the rest of the employee, almost literally work non stop to juz arrange the stuffs and all.. Quite fun though, at least it's kind of form of sports =x haha!!

Had a great argument with my mum juz now.. Same old same old.. I always told people, when argue, who lost his cool, he lost the arguement, and that's the way i kinda win over ben in his stupid flame war.. But honestly, i think ben really really should learn from my parents.. I mean, seriously, no matter how cool am i, they will confirm make me blew my steam off at 1 point.. and i mean ALWAYS!! Ah well, at least the issue is gone now alrd..

Talking to Sud now as im typing this blog.. He raised an interesting qn actually.. Ah, how i miss him... Damn you for not coming back to sg this year!!

==================================Day 13 after break up===================================

Wew, wad a bad number... Oh well, i find it particulary weird, when im stuck in Indo now and stuck in Indo 1 month ago.. 1 month ago, days passed so lightly with me only thinking abt you occasionally, spent most of my time with Tim and all.. And now, after we broke up, almost everytime i'm doing nothing, my mind will always race back to the time when we are together.. Haha, does that mean i really took u for granted last time?

I really feel like recording wadever you ever said last time, so that i will not forget it.. I cant remember much now, but perhaps, i'll keep on editting it till i can record most of it.. Here goes then (and it wont be in chronological order, so future me, try to link it up yourself, ur past is too lazy to edit it -.- Anw, if your feeling to her is true, you shouldnt even forget which goes 1st -.-):

She says "You are bored? What about accompanying me study then?! Wait, how does that will cure ur boredom?"
She says "I'm sorry, i really cant say I love you yet.. I promise i will though, one day"
She says "I always feel so special whenever i'm with you.. Thank you"
She says "You know, you know, I want us to be the ultimate couple!"
She says "Do you know why i didnt want to just get into relationship with you like how i get into 1 with my ex?? Coz that is mistake and I dont want us to be mistake"
She says "....and i'm not ready to lose you yet"
She says "Ooh! I cant wait for 2mr's sakae sushi's buffet!"
She says "When you ask me whether i want to cry or not just now, it's like within me, i know you really understand about me"
She says "Idk, it's not you.. Im just really tired of all this.. I just want to be single... And you'll ask me why im with ben then? it's becoz *******(no, im not gonna say why she's with ben -.-)
She says "Dont kiss me.. Just think about it as i hate you"
She whispers "I want to be your gf" (fine, for this, i'll give u chance, the future me -.-.. It happens on mrt, and it's the last day of her O's and you were late to school and only went for the 2nd meeting.. Coz i really really really dont want you to forget this..)
She says "well, i guess i'll talk to you again....on 2 weeks time? :)"

I think this is all i can remember for now.. At least, it's not a mind burden for me anymore, for i know, i can always refer to this if i want to remember abt her ;)



Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Hello Hello!! I'm back again on the evening!! Haha!! So, i'll juz sums the day fast, since i cant stay online in inet for too long :D

So, i stopped on lunch juz now, so after that, not much happen actually.. I went down (yes, again..) to tend the shop, and at 1pm, my instructor came.. Hmm, it's nissan today.. Steering wheel is a bit....light? And the gear 1 acceleration (or wadever u guys wanna call it) is kinda...shaky.. Ah well, but once changed gear, it moves smoothly.. Quite a good car actually.. Perhaps it have been too long since i drive, i made quite some mistakes during turning.. Ah well, 5 more meetings to go.. Hope by then i can drive a car without me need to go hospital and have thousands of stitching -.-

After driving lessons, nothing much happen than just lifting some stuffs up and down the stairs juz to arrange them.. Supervise the employee loading things up for out-of-town trips and all.. Basically, im kinda the master of warehouse =x except perhaps, i'm more practical than my dad (practical in the sense of lifting stuffs myself also and all.. Lol!!) Cant let my parents know, else they really will kill me for doing that -.- Meh

Anw, anw, lots of people ask me not to do the "count-up" alrd, saying it'll juz make me more emo, well, lemme get this thing clear, No, i am NOT emo-ing when i'm recalling them.. For goodness sake, I'm juz recalling them for the sake of recalling.. For the sake of memories, cos honestly, i cant and i DONT want to let it go.. Read my much much previous post and u'll learn abt someone called Sue.. She's special, and so does MT.. (Jac, well, we kinda broke up..coldly and we also dont have much memories =x).. So, i'll juz cont my "count-up" :D:D

==================================Day 12 after break up===================================

It was a boring afternoon just now, and i ransack my whole phone to find some entertainment, and i came across some of the msges u sent me last time that i saved.. 5 entries on 1st July and 1 entry on 5th Oct.. Diff days, diff months, same msg meaning.. And i try to ask myself and compare you back then and compare you at present time.. I dont mean to make you look bad or wadsoever, honest.. But i really have no idea what you are doing now.. You said, you just want something new, i said (after i compare you back then and now) you are just trying to do a bungee jumping with wadever rope you can find.. Hey, ben, listen, no, i have nth against you when i'm writting this, k? This is just my opinion and comparison, so chill ur head off -.- dont need to get so worked up.. So, why i say so then? It's because, last time you still be able to use words like "So, why i didnt just get into relationship with you like how i go into 1 with my ex then? Coz last time is mistake, and i do not want us to be mistake" (1st july) or something like "Coz i do not want to settle for the less" (wad u say most of the time) and all things like that.. Somehow, i cant picture you as the "looking for the perfect guy" type of girl anymore, now instead you become "i grab whatever i can see".. Go ahead and answer "well, people change" and i'll answer "yeah, but none change to be worst than before"

Okay, juz now's is for 2mr, here's today's :D

Woke up at around 8, and feel very cold.. I think i set the air con temp wrongly or something -.- Or perhaps, it's my body that start to adapt with sleeping without aircon.. To make thing worse, my bathroom's heater broke and i need to bathe with chilly water.. Gah! Starts my day....coldly =x

Went down for a cup of juice for my breakfast and went down to tend the shop.. Supposedly to have driving lessons at 9am, but the instructor is teaching someone at that time and can only make it on 1pm later.. Oh well, guess juz need to make do with it.. And today's april fool, sent a few msges to my friends and not much ppl reply (YOU GUYS KNEW WHO YOU ARE!! EITHER YOU ARE SMART, OR YOU ARE LAZY!! >:D)

I guess that's all that i can write for now, considering it's only 12pm in Indonesia now -.- Not to worry though, i'll still keep up the recording, either i'll try blog oncer a day, OR i'll juz store it in my phone 1st and blog it down the next time i'm able to blog again

PS: For all authorized personel: I think i have some fresh new idea to improve BMDP (more like only zakia will know wad's BMDP loh -.-)

==================================Day 12 after break up===================================

I was walking around the shop juz now, and i remembered, i even ever made a vid out of the shop coz you said you wanna see how my shop and house looked like.. How i'm tempted to open the gallery and watch that vid, but i decided against it, for i know, it wont do me any good.. And not only that, last time i used to scribbled ur initial wherever i go in the shop, and it sure brings back memories when i pass those places.. 12 days, and continue counting...

Ah, finally, the taste of internet.. I thought can continue blogging through phone, coz even though Indonesia dont have wireless or uber fast inet, they have something that I can be proud off: 3G almost everywhere.. But recent heavy downpour in Indo (YES!! IT'S UBER HEAVY THAT MY HOUSE FRONT LAWN IS FLOODED!!), cause the signal to be unreachable from my house.. Meh, hope they can repair it soon.. Anw, since i cant blog ytd, i juz typed it down on my phone and saved it up.. And since today is today, and ytd is ytd, im going to use this post as ytd's post 1st

Here onward will be wad happen in my life on Tue 31/3/09:

I'm actually debating within myself whether I should record down today's event or not, but well, eventualy, I thought of juz recording it down.. Arrived at Indonesia at ard 11am sg time.. Went out for lunch straight after that and upon arrival at home, i only have time to unpack my stuffs and i need to tend the shop alrd.. So much for "lots of time to rest in Indo" Time flies quite fast actually after that.. I help to gather stuffs, pack it up, and basically do wad i usually do, but weird thing is, i enjoy it more this time..

Went out at night with family coz my mum want to buy new table for her new laptop, back to home not long after and stayed in room and enjoy a few dvd that i bought with tim last time and havent watched yet.. Well, quite boring day i know, but then again, wad u expect from Indo? :D

==================================Day 11 after break up===================================

Ah, at times i wonder, if only i didnt go back sg these last 2 weeks, will we still be together and still be together for longer time? These few days really make me think and wonder, perhaps, back on those days, i really didn't treat you as best as i could, and sure, at times, i even took you for granted, always thought you'll always be there when i need you.. Meh, for that, I'm sorry.. :(