Friday, March 27, 2009

Wow, im back again.. Haha.. I wonder how many people will view this post.. =x
I decided I'll come back to blog again, to occupy my free time now.. I heard lots of people give me advice that I need to make myself busy and all to "move on", so, ta daa~ here am I

Well, today starts out quite late.. I only woke up at ard 9am due to some weird clucking noise.. Initially, i ignore it, but when it become too unbearable, i decided to check it and guess wad? It's those worker that's doing their upgrading job -.- I went to wash up and all, and ask wj, whether he playing rapplez or not.. And as the matter of fact, he is, not only that, his lvl is far ahead of me alrd and i thought i win him alrd ytd. Tsk..will need to chiong again, and I really do hope I didnt give up too early, since he really do me a favour to acc me play alrd.. Haha..

Went out with my mum to toa payoh just now.. Initially, she want to go to City Hall's carefour, which I object adamantly, for I thought, it surely will make me emo badly, since "we" spent much time there alrd, and the memories is thickest there, esp "we" need to go to theater by the bay.. But i do not realize till i reached toa payoh, that it is there, where my memories will overflow me.. For goodness sake, it is there, where "we" went for our 1st movie and dinner.. And sure enough, i lost my concentration there.. I always like to laugh at those emo people, like how stupid can they get? So lost and so unfocused just becoz they break up or quarell, but look at my own condition now... BUT I still wont call myself emo, so you shouldnt too! :D

==================================Day 7 after break up===================================

It have been a week.. probably the longest week i ever felt.. I talked to many friends of mine alrd, and yeah, seems like they gave me the same advice "Dont think about her anymore, just move on.." And that is just how much i want to do, but it really is not as easy as it sounds.. Move on? Then what about our memories? What about everything that we had done? Am i just going to forget all and deny that it ever happen? If either zakia or sudono read this, I know im going to get hell lot of scolding.. But this is really happening to me now.. I cant even bring myself thinking about other girls, which is totally weird.. For if i were to be honest, when we are together, it's more often that not that sometimes i think about other girls more than you.. Perhaps, now i knew the meaning of the word "loss" When i talked to you, you really seems very happy and unburdened.. If I were to be honest, i really does envy you.. I really have no idea how you can do it, and i cant.. I really wish i have just another chance, but it does seems impossible, for it will means that i need to make you break up with ben huh? Perhaps, if the feeling still stays, i will wait till you are over with ben and maybe i'll work my way up again.. I guess that's all for now..