Friday, April 11, 2008

Sometimes i ask myself, what is love actually? What do i actually seek from having a relationship with girls? And surprisingly, most of the time, I almost come to the dead end.. I mean, it will always be "you need accompaniances, someone who understand you and care about you and stuff" But then again, is that really is the case? I often ask myself, how many gf did my dad ever have before my mom? Is their time is like us, where we find a gf, knowing fully well that we are going to break up one day? Or is it that on their time, find a partner and going to stay together forever already?

From time to times, what my pastor ever told us, tend to come to my mind: "Perhaps, we are just not ready for the relationship, and God have the plan for it".. Is it really true that i am not ready for the relationship? Am i really still naive and childish to really play this game seriously? Am i really still dun understand anything abt relationship? Is wad Jac told me is the truth? That i think too highly of myself abt relationship?

If there is a girl that u like very much, and you plan to tell her that alrd, but the sec before u told her that, she told u that she is actually having an eye on someone else, what will u actually do? Will u just let her go? thinking that "well, as long as she is happy with him, i am fine with it?" or should u tell her straight and try ur best and overfight that guy because u think that the girl should be the happiest with you? Until now, honestly, i still dont know, which course of action is the best one.. You might think 2nd one will be the best from the way i say it, but imagine, what if you cant make the girl happy and ends up in break up? Wont that be worse than juz stay as friend?

Perhaps, from what i said above, you can judge whether i am still naive and childish or nt.. But you know, memories scarred, and it will be there till heaven knows when.. I dun think i will easily forget all those experience i alrd have and left behind..