Friday, January 25, 2008

Honestly, I have this feeling of uncertainty within myself.. It is as if, my pass is pulling me back..
I dunno how it can happen, but, it seems like, recently, it's juz a lot of things happen that keep reminding me of the pass.. Yeah, by saying the pass i actually mean Sue..

Okok, i know, dun need to remind me, me and her are just friends nw.. But what makes me feel all these feelings then? Is it really that i still have feeling with her? Impossible rite? I was so firm on my decision to leave her already, so firm that i can start to erase her out of my life already, slowly dissolving my feelings towards her.. But why? Why after that night after we talk, she began to appear in my mind again? I only want to cut our bonds by talking for the last time, but why now instead of cutting the bonds, ends up clinging on me instead? Maybe talking to her is a bad move after all?

God, hear my prayer, I know that i cant do this alone, God, i really need You to help me up.. Whenever I try to do something, i know i will not be able to do it right just by myself.. If it is without Your help, i know i cant achieve anything, God.. Please, lead me out of this problem.. I have faith in You, God.. I know you will help me this time.. Please..