Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Haha.. It's amazing that i still can laugh at this kind of moment.. As i'm typing nw, dear are suggesting for break up.. So laughing is kinda retarded action huh?

Why u ask? I have no slight idea.. Moments ago, it is only some discussion abt "Why you never say this words to me?" and somehow it leads all the way to here.. Ok, sure, i am not the super good type of bf, but i am learning arent i?? I am really tired with all these bombardment of problem, honest.. Seems like nowadays everytime me and dear talk, it will only be about problem this and problem that.. I tried to end the problem throwing, but ends up making things a bit worse nia.. Not that as if the things is not bad alrd though.. Is love life really that tough to manage?

I really miss the old Jac that is much stronger, much independent, much reliable and etc etc
I miss the time where we are arguing on who miss who and keep arguing, the time where she try to attract attention, time where we spend time chatting, teasing each other and stuff like that.. Time where we still talk much.. Times where we are still close to each other

As i type this out, i dun really noe wad is actually going on in my head also.. I juz noe sumthing, if we are going to carry on like this, and still expecting to be in relationship, i must admit that it will be a bit impossible.. That is why exactly, i'm trying my best to solve the problem up.. But then again, like what people say, to clap a hand, u need 2 hands.. Am i the one that not cooperating? or the other way round? Of that, i dun want to give any judgment..

I juz hope that everything will turn out to be normal again.. I noe, it's like asking for moon to appear at day time (i'm not talking abt eclipse, u faggot), but i still do believe in miracle.. I juz hope that miracle help me once again this time..